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I miss being here!  all the feed back and the pushing up and hooplas for a job well done, I have not been on in a while but i am still on track.  I have lost 22 pounds and i joined the gym I had a personal trainer (he was cool)  I like the gym that i go, my trainer helps to keep me motivated the other staffers keep an eye on me even thought im not their client…

long story short

 I AM HOOKED NEARLY A GYM RAT I took a yoga class and I love that too! 

As I walk in and out of the bathroom avoiding the scale on a daily basis, I can feel my body telling me that “your going the wrong way”. My back hurts, my feet are swollen and I feel just plain old bad. I can’t even remember the last time that I weighed in, thank God I put it on here. So today I FINALLY step on the scale and sure enough I’M GOIN THE WRONG WAY!!!
I know it does not take a genius to see that not eating healthy or atleast being aware of calories consumed+not drinking water+no exercising = FAT ASS!
Where was my inner voice? Why did I let myself get to this point? I love myself but I hate my body.
So someone please tell me why I don’t love myself enough to GO THE RIGHT WAY???

Hello everyone, I feel a mess.  I dont want to gross you guys out but this post is a little yucky.

I eat tons of veggies (spinach is a super dooper pooper food for me), I try to have raw veggies with 2 of my meals so I know im am getting enough, I drink more than 64oz of water and  I eat unpeeled fruits for snack. 

I go to the bathroom I swear 4 to 5 times a day for elimination which I thought was a good thing, so why is it that I never feel empty.  I feel kinda bloated too.

I am really thinking about doing a colon cleanse.

 has anyone done this?

do you think it is healthy?

Morning all,

Am I crazy?  Why cant I stop weighing myself.  I step on the scale like 6 to 7 times a day.  Even when my weight was going the wrong way I did so.  I go to the potty I step on the scale, I walk past the bathroom and just go in to step on it. 

What the heck is that all about?  And sometimes I am nervous when I weigh is that excitement or anxiety?

HELP ME SOMEBODY?

I had a really bad case of the munchies last night….I lived through them though. 

I just decided to go to bed instead of staying up all night watching TV, because I know that I would have found something to eat… and I know it would have not been anything worth blowing this on…. cuz I have not been food shopping yet.  

I have a much better mindset today.  A felling that I can do this is returning to me.

I enjoy reading blogs, they actually do inspire me.  It let me see that the world is much bigger than what is going on im my world. 

Thanks everyone

I am not working this thing!!  After a few weeks of not eating right, I have come to the realization that I have a very short attention span when it comes to motivating myself.                                                                                                                             I want to lose weight,  I want to fel better,  I want to look better, and with all of this pressing down on me I still fail to work hard for my own wellbeing.  I promised myself that I was going to work hard, I promised myself that I was going to take care of myself so that I will not become ill from being over weight.

I really dont think I can do this on my own, I love the support on here, and it is great when I check in, I will become more consistant with logging in my weight, and keeping a better track of my food.

I m looking for a foot to push me, I sure could us a drill instructor.   

I think I may go to Jenny.

Lord guide my steps                                                                                   

I went on a mini vaca…. I had a very nice time with my family,   I didn’t lose any this week I know why… I ate and ate and ate.  Crab cakes, snow crab legs, hot dogs, and so on. 

I can actually see my choice own improvement because  

1. I didn’t bring any food home with me.

2. I walked right past the Godiva shop and the Cheesecake Factory 4 times and didn’t go in (wheeeew).

3. because we were in the city we walked ALOT.

So even thought I know all  the too muches and the not enoughs I had over the past few days, I can gladly say “IT”S OVER” and now I will just keep on keeping on.

Lord guide my steps

Morning,  like everyone else in the world I have a lot going on.  I just found out last night that I no longer have a job……no biggy I see this as my chance to turn summer into my weight loss season.

However with me having the summer off my son will want to go to amusement parks which means coaster rides, many of which I cannot ride because I am too FAT,  NO wait, wait, wait I WAS to fat to ride.  I plan to ride all the rides that I used  way way long ago before kids and fat stuff.  And to ride and anything that my 12 yr old wants to ride,  last year I got on a ride and the staff tried to squeeeeeeze the safety bar down on me.   I screamed for them to stop and left the loading are really ashamed because I had to leave my baby to ride with my friends because I was TOO FAT TO RIDE!

This year my family has plans for going to FL. and Vegas, OOOO both places have great rides and guess what I WILL NOT BE TOO FAT TO RIDE.

I will keep my head up no matter what, because I am worth it, my son is worth it and my baby girl is worth it.  

Oh yeah look I have a red star!

  12 lbs down

Thank for being my bra 

Lord guide my steps 

OMG I missed   you guy’s!  I loaned my laptop to    my cousin and I couldnt blog from work.  I dont wanna say this but NEVER AGAIN….  but good news my scale got here today and I weighed in about 4hrs ago and………drum roll please

 I lost 6lbs.  Yes 6. 

I’m so proud of myself and my mother also she lost 2 (go mommy)

Today we went took my kids to pick strawberries today…..YUMMY they are soo sweet and juicy. 

Thanks for being my bra

Lord guide my steps